Hey It's me.
Today I went to pick up my morning yogurt and crackers before work and again the elders were talking.
They are still hoping that I have a baby with Johnny.
Johnny didn't want to get to know me, I was used for his popularity. He displayed that he didn't respect me when he started asking other people about me.
As soon as possible he gave up on me for someone else.
If Johnny were to pursue a relationship with after that, everything after her that I would go through would be with her permission. He has her number, he doesn't want mine, he didn't even want to know my name. And I would be knowing that I'm second or lesser more than a possible long list of other women he holds more ideal for himself.
Why do you want me to live in shame with someone that hates me and would leave me as soon as possible?
After he got whatever he wanted from someone else his focus shifted back to me because my manager threw herself at him. He didn't file for sexual harassment because males don't normally file for that and they should.
He used me as a she shield and whenever possible he attempted to get me into trouble at work.
Someone that purposely puts you in harms way or career jeopardy is not to be trusted nor believed.
For me the peer pressure started last November I started fasting during the weekend and only eating once at Chinese restaurant. That's where a group of kids started talking about me in front of me. One claimed that "she's in love with Johnny", I didn't the youth, I didn't know the person the they were speaking about. I had just learned my coworkers name and the statement was shocking.
Johnny claims that he follows my Instagram without actually following my Instagram, that means he knows my number and mailing address and chooses not to call or write.
His female support curse at me and refer to me as a "bitch" or other statements. They don't explain themselves, they insult and leave.
The male to male fake peer pressure for their popularity is building and hopefully fizzed out. Someone even claimed that they were singing to me in a language they know I don't know. They said my name in the micro phone. It was supposed catch someone else in jealous, I hoped it worked that person.
From what I went through from other families in other NYC towns I assure you, it's fully understood that everyone here hates me and what's me to be alone.
From what I see how you treat each other I think you're doing me a favor.
Can you stop lying now?